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Wow.. what a weekend. I dont even know what to say about it, so many ups and downs. But this was a big weekend and i realized who the important people in my life are and those who truly care about me.
Friday was an absolute blast. Pictures at daves were amazing. Everyone looked absolutly gorgeous!! esp the fine ladies casually dressed, I have to admit i was a little jealous they didnt have to go.. but it turned out to be fun. Our escalade ride was quite fun. " screw prom, lets just go to chucky cheeses!!" I cant wait to get pictures back! I got to dance with alot of people until i felt like Mrs. Sinkoweitz was undressing me with her eyes. If she was hot i wouldnt have minded.. The best part of prom was our minutes in heaven with FIVE O'CLOCK in the bathroom stall. hehe."Jenna and rach, i need you to help fix my dress, will you go in the stall with me" Rach-diggity is my dance partner for life let me tell you, this hoe knows how to get down. haha. around 11 when they started rockin the chicken dance we decided to split... without our dates. When i think about she kind of was.. hmmm( all this joking about it makes me think maybe i really am a lesbian, hahaha. " All lesbians can tie a cherry stem with their tongue" )After prom was sweet. Rach and I stopped at the gas station and picked up a little punch.. " COlleen help! i dont know how to pump my gas!". we, as in I, did a little pre- hoteling while showing the car next to us our sweet dancing skills. We arrived and i had a chat in the parking lot with some weird kid. When we finally went up everyone was having a great time, cept my dear jess. I fear she wasnt at her best. She never ceases to amaze me, or make me laugh. " WHo gave me warm water you fool!!!" " HELLOO, I need assistance" i love you" i was wisked away and taken home, had a little four hour chat and the rest is history.
I couldnt have asked for a better birthday. I recieved a great gift at the stroke of midnight, and got some calls by great people. I also got tp'd and had a clawson construction marker put on my lawn....cough laura and j sura cough... haha. Jess came over and gave me and my mom flowers, which was the coolest thing ever. im sure today wasnt the most uplifting day for you and i hate it, but you made mine so great, thanks jess, i love you sooooo much. I went to the mall with barbie and she bought me 100 dollar jeans... :/ how horrible is that. then i visited a couple fools. Dinner was great. we had a sushi drawing contest on the table. lol. And i visited Kb who gave me the coolest present ever!! ( ESCAPE... BSB always, nothing but winnners ) LOVE YOU SIS!!!
I know this was the longest entry ever but so many amazing things have happened to me this weekend and i really want to thank everyone who talked to me. Just a message or a phone call really meant the world to me!!!! you know who you are and i want you to know how much i love you all!! You see who your true friends are, i just hope they are still as excited about being my friend when its not my birthday anymore.. so thank you to everyone again.
shella- can we please hang out more?
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See all those people on the ground
Wasting time
I try to hold it all inside
But just for tonight
The top of the world
Sitting here wishing
The things I've become
That something is missing
Maybe I...
But what do I know
And now it seems that I have found
Nothing at all
I want to hear your voice out loud
Slow it down, slow it down
Without it all
I'm choking on nothing
It's clear in my head
And I'm screaming for something
Knowing nothing is better than knowing at all
On my own
Without it all
I'm choking on nothing
It's clear in my head
And I'm screaming for something
Knowing nothing is better than knowing at all
..Am I truly on my own now
-- I hate being sick!
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[02 May 2005|04:16pm] |
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What a week... what a month. Im so sick of shitty weather! Its may, it should not be snowing!!!! esp. on my birthday! ( 6 days!) Hopefully this week will be a blowoff and this weekend will be awesome.. it is much needed! FRiday night is prom!!.. hopefully all the unnecessary drama will disapear and we can all just have fun! Its gonna be a blast. EVERYONe pray i have saturday off, we are all defenitly having a girls night out for my birthday!! so saturday night.. dont make any plans, its gonna be fun! ; ). ( dont worry, there will be NO club echo, hehe..) I dont care that the place was sick, we had fun anyways and some major bonding.. Rach, i love it when we pee together! lol, who knew trees were so convenient!
Walking into the gym for the speaker i was already apprehensive and feeling guilty. i didnt know what to think and i didnt want to be told what to do, we hear it enough at a catholic school, not to mention its a touchy subject. I know you cant change whats in the past but i wish i could. I hate that i have regrets, i need to lay them to rest instead of killing myself over them. THe worst part of the talk was that i got so much out of it, and the person i wanted to hear it couldnt have given a shit. I wish i wouldnt have collapsed, i feel weak and taken advantage of.. and its my fault too. im not saying to become a die hard follower and its ok to joke about it, i just wish he would have listened. I love jenna to death. I miss her and sooo glad that were close. ITs good to know someones there. And believe me, i know everyones there, although i dont always let people in. sorry. So back to that becoming a nun thing, its sounding real nice about now! I love all my girls so much, ive always wanted and felt like i need someone else there.. but i love my friends so much i need to realize ive got all the love i need, why am i wasting my time trying to find someone?Guys.. i love you. You know who you are.. Ever since retreat you guys have meant the world to me. xo
william, thank you sooo much. THe late night complaints over stupid shit. You are a constant, dont worry about not having a light with your map... i'll always have extra batteries for my light. forever on my own..
For my birthday i would like.: Everyone to be together and having fun. No fights, no problems.. Just everyone having the best time together... please?
I shall name him Henry!!
( haha love you mere :) i love lunch... " I wish this orange could last forever! " Dear whitney, how i love thee, would you share this orange with me?
Beez Neez.. Can we please watch it! lol
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SO then... which way to the convent?
Just call me sister Marie Clarance..
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| Highlights. Lowlights. And things to Come |
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- rockin and workin in the RO while everyones on spring break :(
- Good days
- Ashlee and OAR next week! :)))
- Piercing?!?!
- Harry Ball Sac barking and biting
- Isaiah throwing a wet condom on Nick's face
- 3 more months of school :)
- 3 more months of school :(
- Volleyball conditioning with the Perkisizer from heavy weights
- What if queen latifah played basketball? -(Pat)
If my name wasnt Colleen, what would it be?
XoXo's
Live Free
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um alright, im updated.
Retreat was amazing, some great things happened, some not so great, and alot of things left unfinished. But it was really needed and it helped. I still need to say alot of things to some people, and others im sooooooooo glad we got to talk. I love you all! Whit, i love you the most, even though you smell like a 16 day old fetus.
Things are better, i think im happy for the first time in a long time. Im around people that truly love me and thats all i need. Those who matter dont mind, and those who mind dont matter.
School sucks as usual and i really dont want to go.. Jess im so sorry but i Love you dearly, you know im here. Im ready to graduate but i still have a year left.. oh shit.
ilu looser
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Everythings going to be ok..
p.s. I love my girls!
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So i guess its been a couple... months since ive last updated. Lots has happened. Too much to name, and too much is a bit depressing so i mine as well skip it.
To sum it all up i basically got played and two years went down the drain.. then i was happy for a while and it all went to hell again. But as jenna says " if its too good to be true, then it usually is." The convent seems like a nice place, but ian said he would beat up the nuns and steel me if i did.
I guess i'll start with this weekend. Thursday night i went to the movies on main with joey and evan.. we saw a movie called "ong bak thai warrior".. i think. Laura decided to join us. At about 2 in the morning we decided it would be fun to join them skiing.. so we did! it was a wonderful time eating mcD's bfast.. and getting picked up by the drive through ( how the hell do you spell it, yeah foley education!)guy, and some hardcore boarders. Friday night Jess came over and we watched monsters inc. What an amazing movie! I love boo. Saturdays all day tournament was not bad. But some people just dont know when to shut up. I love my girls but I hate to break it to you... i dont want to hear every detail about your relationship.. just a little hint. Ive decided to become retarded so i can stay with shell another year.. im not going to be able to live without her!
Saturday night i got ditched, so i went to mikes to watch the all star events. That was fun for a while, till things got real messed up and people got on my nerves. Jenna saved me and i went to her house and we watched Saw.. or atleast until we fell alseep. WE tried to make chocolate chip pancakes but it didnt turn out so well. lol
Finally today practice was cancelled so it was very chill. Realized some people arent the amazing, caring, flawless person you make them out to be.
Poor pep is DEAD!!! dont fret, shes in the shop getting a face lift!
Live in Love right?
xo Colleen ps.. 19 days!!
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Hello All. It is I. I havent written one in a while, just because I rather like to read all yours.But since Environmental Science is so incredibly boring I thought I'd write a little somethin somethin.
This Weekend was pretty cool, kind of chill but good. Friday after my game I went to Alex's and watched Seven with mike and the lovely Kay! Then I came home because I like to come home at like 930 on the weekends! :). Then Saturday I chilled all morning, Then saw Les miserables because my old best friend had a main role. she tore it up, it was pretty good, and i saw Coop! What a coinkidink! Then after I went to dinner with the mother, then came home. Sunday I had practice at Clawson from 12-1, then came to open house which was soo boring it was sick. I basically chatted it up with my old pal GAbe.. whos coming to foley in JAnuary. Then after Ryan picked me up and we went to frannes where we crashed the party Michelle and some sophs were having.. but i couldnt stay because of my messed up priorities. haha, :) and we met up with some sweet people and saw "Saw". I loved all the seniors there, i loved hanging out with them, they are so sweet and fun. Esp. fran,Erika and Urb just because theyre sweet at basketball too. ha. We went back to Frans where we had James' story time!He decided to explain how he came to america from Nigeria in Africa, lol. good times. Then Schwartz and I decided to go to a party in St. Clair Shores because were badasses like that and can do anything thing we feel like.lol.jp, we defenitly went home. Monday we had practice at 11, horrible yes I know but you gotta do what youve gotta do. After I chilled at Mikes and watched Grand Theft Auto... chatted with Hayman and Kb, some pretty sweet freshman, seriously I love those girls. Then a phone call interupted and screwed everything up. oh well, It was forgotten and everythings ok now. Then I had some mac n cheese, lol, even though i wasnt that hungary. I brought Kb back to Foley, lol, that was an interesting ride. PEOPLE THESE DAYS! lol. So we all go to Clawson the watch Shrine demolish Memphis?.. it was so horrendisly( how do you spell it?lol) boring i left at the half, and went to Jennas house! We just chilled in her bed, haha, and watched life in the ER. Poor guys got his face blown off. We just layed there and talked but it was the most fun ive had in a long time, i miss jenna soooooo much and i was very happy to hang out with her.. we got to catch up, it was grand.
I have decided that Im not going to worry about people anymore.. people are so concerned with those their " BEsT FrIeNd!".. being all out sisters for a couple days then moving on.. its kind of gay but ive decided Anyone who would like to be my friend, I would love to be yours!!!! Im not going to make myself sick over who doesnt like me, or ditches me because its not worth it, really.Jessica Skinner is the coolest person in the world. I seriously dont have a problem with anyone, i like everyone, so jus let me know, n i will love you. lol.
ps. thanks to those who have always been with me. love you.
PLEASEEEEE come to our districts game on Wednesday.. its at 6 oclock in the afternoon at Clawson. WE need you there to support!!! You can even wear a pink shirt, you would look so hot!lol.
Leave some chocolate kisses!
to petie- from stacey = girl i love u so much, u def know how to KEEP IT REAL! i love u so much and u are the shit!!!! lol.. i agree with u on alot of things lol.. i think we already stated what it was.. never change! ur the best! THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!! and your gunna rock at districts.
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Information update: Ashley is the most intellegent person I know!!! Her and her .9 GPA. I wish i could be JUST like her! No Joke!
A Haiku just for you!!!!!( Ashley came up with that all by herself with her big noggin!!
Travis is big, yeah
you all are just reaL JEALOUS!
Which way is the beach?
Dear SEcret Admierer(ashley smelled it, dumbass),
I sit and watch you from afar. You are just too damn sexy i cant even speak the words in my heart that describes my deep love for you. your chess club skills blow my mind. the way you move the bishop across the checkered board makes me weak in the knees. Your sense of style is like no other.. The tape between your glasses hits the spot. Until the day i see you again.. LOVE ALWAYS- Ash
k got interupted by the NUB.. just cause he doesnt get any action doesnt mean ash shouldnt!!! Lover, if your out there... hear my call!! PEACE!
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Truthfully, if i moved to Alaska tomarrow..and i would never see you again, what would you say to me before i left? Just wondering. Leave Something!
xo
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Once everythings ok, someone has to get into my business and say stupid shit that doesnt concern them. I know you didnt mean any harm, but if it doesnt involve you, and it doesnt do any good to bring it up, then dont!! Especially when im walking by..
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Wow what a night. Yet another loss to add to the record books. I wonder why we havent gotten asked to interview us and our " cool System " lately.. oh yeah, maybe its because it absolutly sucks and doesnt work. St. Clement sucked sooo bad I dont understand how we can loose to them.. its like loosing to Dondero, actually i shouldnt say it like that because im not so sure we could beat them now. The Best part of the whole night was riding home with Mere. She is defenitly my fav. The vag pad was wonderful, everyone enjoyed its lovely fishy scent rubbed in their face!
Im really sick of this election. I understand why everyones talking about it though.. im just tired of it, theres nothing we can do to change whos president, or change how they run our country. So nothings going to change no matter how much we bitch about it. It does scare me though.. putting my life into the hands of Bush.. ehh.
i Guess it has been one of the better weeks,I got into NHS! Im not really not that happy bout it but my family sure is, so whatever makes them happy is cool with me. I also made Kairos leadership team, which is absolutly awesome!.. at first I was so nervous I wasnt sure I even wanted to do it but im really excited to bond with some really cool people.( AKA: Catie, Bush, and Gina) Im sooooo bummed Jess didnt make it I seriously cried! I know she wanted it bad and deserved it. I want it to be so cool, i have the feeling it will.
Went to the Doctors yet again.. He still doesnt really know whats wrong with me, he just gave me some drugs and told me to tell him if they dont work. If they dont, back to testing I go!! I hate having a crummy tummmy!
Tomarrow is a jeans day.. catholic school kids be happy!
Hugs And Kisses to All!!
Leave some X's and O's
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Its been a while.
Ahh.. i really dont get it, how i could feel so horrible all the time? If its not one thing, something else always comes up.. When my hearts not broken, my stomach is tore up!.. i seriously always feel like shit and it sucks so bad, im so tired of it. CAnt things just be ok for once!.. when will everything ever be ok?
I also feel like some of the people i thought were so close to me and we my best friends like to say they are but dont back it up..trying to be friends with whoever is popular at the time. Its shady and so superficial but i know who my true friends are in the end and thats all i need. Kb and I keep telling eachother You are most important.. but i must be such a hypocrite because i cant even follow my own advice.
BIg game at marian tomarrow, but as usualy no ones probably coming..i love how everyone can drive out to Lutheran North to watch the boys soccer but not our home games.oh well, i understand if they didnt.. I wouldnt like to watch us play sometimes either.
I hope the guys win friday night soo bad! they deserve it so much, they work so hard and they didnt have the best season last year. THey need this.
BEst of all the concert is Saturday. THough it has really bad timing, the used concert is saturday.. WHenever im going through shit all i have to do is listen to them, everything seems ok. So many things can get you down, but i can just get away. Its going to be amazing to seee them, esp. my homeboy Bert. And to top it all of im going with WHIT And JESS!!!!!!!! what an amazing day thats going to be. ps. whit i dont know whats going on and im sure your sick of everyone asking and wondering but im not going to pry!.. i just hope your doing ok and know that im here. love you
Not feelin so hot so im going to lay down. - As Always
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Wow, what a weekend! I dont know where to begin, how about friday.. that sounds about right.. haha. School went ok, had to slip my NHS form under the office door because im always last minute with everything, and Belf has diarrhea of the mouth and likes to talk to me so that i dont make it to the office in time. Then i ran home, packed my bag.. said hello to Stace, who came over to go to the game with J and let her wear my jersey!.. dashed to FOley where we took the long ride to Regina, where we totally dominated.
Saturday- LAyed around all morning, FINALLY bought tickets for the USED and setteled for seats because the floor was sold out which absolutly sucks ass.. oh well, atleast im going! Jess came and picked me up and we went to the tailgate. It was weird though, it was just a bunch of people standing around a tiny grill with like 4 hotdogs on it, and jess brought cookies.. thats it. Kinda lame but funny! WE proceeded to the game... not many people there, but it was fun because the guys did great and Scott scored a touchdown and played, so it was good. People defenitly got really annoying so Catie, Jess and I decided to take a little drive, have a little jam session. After the game jenna wasnt feelin to good and she had to be home so we went to Nash then the movie store instead of the Haunted House, kind of a bummer but we can always go this weekend, no biggie. So everything was ok until people like to get themselves and their friends drunk to the point where their hallucinating and extremly sick and throw up all over the place.. I love you mere and would take care of you anyday, maybe more so if i didnt have a phobia of throwing up. ha. Love you babes! So we went back to jennas and watched the girl next door, funny movie... Talked to B bout how he wants to go out. ehhhh. Then talked to this really sweet kid till bout 2 in the morning bout everything, twas very nice!!.. Are things getting better, if they are that would be great. I wish things would be ok for once!
Sunday- Decided to go to church. I feel so guilty going to a catholic church and hearing everyday about how if you dont go to church every sunday you will rot in hell... so i went. Eternal damnation doesnt sound to good to me. Then again, i dont feel i was talked into it, screw them, im not going to be another one of their blinded catholic followers. WEnt to breakfast with the fam before juli went back to SHU, then these 3 dorky kids asked me to go to the movies, so i saw Friday Night Lights which was amazingly good. Except for the part where my butt got numb and my tailbone hurt like a bitch. Besides the fact i went with a couple loosers i had a great time.. haha, just messing, theyre the best. They made me laugh!
NOw for the future... DePorres is tomarrow, big hurdle but we can do it.. My goal is to atleast get 40 points.. not personally of course, lol. And not get dunked on in their own gym.. and get shot, those would all be things. ha
Thats all for now. Love you all. -Colleen
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[07 Oct 2004|07:43pm] |
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Wow, what a messed up month, really! Things that i never thought would happen have, and they really arent good things either! Like going to court for being a dumbass.. and getting bitched at by the magistrate. I then proceeded to the probation office where they told me i have to take classes for being such a dumbass( the only plus is there is a posibility of a cute guy... :))
Im not doing well in my classes, i keep failing all my tests and news of ACT's and SAT's is freaking me out because that basically determines where you go for college.. sweet, i hope the partying is good at OCC.. shit, lol.My mom already thinks im a problem child and doesnt let me go out on the weekends like a normal child. Im stuck with a mother who still asks me if i need to go potty.. oh no, its not that funny when your asked that.
In addition to all this.. ive hurt so many people and it makes me feel absolutly horrible! I dont mean to because the worst feeling in the world EVER is when somone is mad at me or doesnt like me. I cant stand the feeling, i just want everyone to be happy. I know we werent going out but i wasnt aware that i would hurt you so bad and im so sorry. I didnt know that your feelings were still strong because you never show me, you never tell me.. i dont know how i could have known but i should have thought about it more before i did it.. I just wanted to move on so badly because ive missed you so much, i was so tired of being shut out and hurt. I will always feel something for you, no matter how much you hurt me... but i wont let it get to me.I know you'll never see this but i need to get it out.
Wow, what a basketball season so far! oh man.. ive heard so much crap. About how we suck... well we may not be the best but were doing our damn hardest, its easy to criticize from the sidelines. Parents, players, and fans upset with our "system". Do i even like to play anymore? J's comin back down with the posse to watch our game tomarrow night, that should be fun.. hope they wont be too disapointed..
ok, done complaining.. hehe
SO feel free to comment, i'd love to hear from ya'll! xox Colleen
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Homecoming was AMAZING... thats all i have to say.
Peace
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Wow, it has been so long. I totally even forgot that i had a live journal... maybe its because lately i have had no life. Either im at school, practice/game, or im grounded and not allowed to do anything! that basically sums up my life right now, and those are the good things. I just feel like theres nothing to look forward to anymore.. i hate coming home, i feel like alot of people have been treating me like shit lately, and one good person comes along and no ones really happy for me, and it just complicates things further.. to add more we got killed by deporres tonight.. the only good thing about the whole night was whitneys awesome cheering from the side while i was crying.. im such a wimp. Anyway, im goign to suck it up, i hate always feeling like shit, because i basically have for the last month. Im really getting good at fake being happy.. im out, homecoming is coming... lol, so im going to try to have fun, even though i cant do anything after, i'll make the best of it!!! We'll have a good time tail gating tomarrow!!! Love you all! xoxox Colleen
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Trying to look on the bright side, things can only get better from here!
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